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[Jan. 12th, 2007|12:02 pm] |
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Yo quiero Erin. Ella es mi favorita persona en el mundo. Cuando sere mas viejo, quiero ser ella. Ella es mas bonita de todas personas en el mundo. Ella y Carlos necesitan chingar y hacer ninos. This is god speaking. |
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| life is changing again. |
[Jan. 2nd, 2007|06:10 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | vermont | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "so far down"- Three doors down | ] |
sweet.im peacing out next week. this//next week is my last in vermont. for a while.
:/ maybe i'll still apply to green mountain. maybe one day I'll go to champlain. but for now im going back to Indian Trail. ITL.CLT.704. triiilove. im going to go to CPCC && transfer somewhere. or maybe i'll be accepted to Johnson & Wales. maybemaybe. maybe not. I've been here a year and two months. this vacation in NC was amazing. but thats what it was. vacation time to get serious. I'm not my moms babysitter. Im not responsible for her. i love my brother. i miss everyone a lot. I've changed and grown up so much. I'm ready to go again. my batteries have been recharged. I hope i never go back to that place i was in. "smile empty soul." i love you guys. I'm making a conscious and subconscious effort to change. I am quitting smoking. i'm not sure how long that will last, since I'll be living with my mother. Maybe I'll move in with mike and johnny. and pay rent there. but only if they get running water. which I hope happens soon. there's a lot of maybe's in this entry. I think I am at another turning point in my life. For the first time I'm not really sure where I want my life to go. I think I'll just ride the wave and see where it takes me. I know that I want a good job && I want to go to college. what a whirlwind. seriously. every six months i seem to shake my life up. |
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| new life she has found |
[Nov. 21st, 2006|02:08 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | h o m e♥ | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "pressure"- Paramore | ] |
if you wait around forever you will surley drownd
Life's just memories and hopes. that's the way I like it.
live.love.forgive.love.live.
it's coming round' again |
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| swing swing from the tangles of my heart |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|10:12 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | music |
| | aar♥ | ] |
I have to go to work.
its a monday!
I never work at PC on mondays
gross.
I think I might make this friends-only.
I dont put much in here...
but still.
I made a kick ass mix called "Mondays blow" to listen to in multimedia && programming. -->which I like. suprise, suprise
so maybe i'll pick up a java class at CCV.
who knows.
lets rollll.
today was generally good.
minus people not getting the hint that I hate their guts.
maybe I'm too nice.
hah doubt that. |
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| Equality |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|06:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I'm not sure | ] |
to die young is to die happy.
to die innocent.
define young
these are the days of our youth.
cherish. eat cherries.
sit in the sun and enjoy the seasons
each of them equally.
this is our time in the sun |
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| All Hallows eve♥ |
[Oct. 30th, 2006|03:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | H O M E | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dani California- RHCP | ] |
I love being a senior.
I hate being a senior in underclassmen classes.
I hate when sneezing tastes and smells like raw noodles.
hahaha
wtf
Mrs. Russel is a bitch.
I pretty much dont know anyone in that class.
Just a bunch of annoying underclassmen.
and this one girl we called "guess who" in french class.
she looked like one of those characters off the game guess who.
so fucking great
anyway. I really need to start college applications.
and havign auditory Deficite Disorder is working out to my advantage
YES♥
not my downfall, which i thought it was going to be.
I'm going to try and update this more regularly rather than when I'm all wigging out over something stupid.
YEAH TOAST.
I'm more allergic to penuts than I used to be.
is that possible? |
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| Where are all the gods? |
[Oct. 29th, 2006|10:16 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "till I hear it from you"- Gin Blossoms | ] |
r e s p e c t
-- the lost art.
have we forgotten the blooms of our fathers?
the things that made them happy
&& free
stick it to the man they say
-- theres more to life;;
do we live in a generation in which these thoughts are forgotten.
we cannot loose the art and wishful thinking of yesteryears.
what happend to creative thinking?
to free spirits.
I miss it.
i felt it as a child.
now all they tell us is to think about our futures.
getting a good job-- going to college.
dont we do all of that so we can live a better life.
to be more happy && free to do what we want?
then how can we do what we want in a nine to five job.
stuck in a cubicle doing what the man tells us to.
what good comes out of that?
heart attacks at 45?
couch potatoes when we go home?
NO there is so much more to life than that
keep that in mind. we do these things--jobs--school
to make money.
to be free && happy when we arent there.
but if it just brings you down
&& all you do is work.
well theres no damn point in it.
i bet a homeless man on the street is more happy then you will be at forty.
he knows theres more to life.
when i was in portland. this homeless woman had a sign that said
"I dont want money, but I will take starbucks gift cards or books."
to live life on the street->is to be free. to read books and drink coffee all day, now thats living
but don't be homeless. don't not get a job. just live life the way you want. and remember it's the man who sticks it to you. but i guess you're the sticky one if your letting him stick it to you.</font> |
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| she'll fuck you just for the day |
[Oct. 20th, 2006|05:37 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | giddy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | atreyu | ] |
I'm truly over him now.
thank God.♥
I slept late today. I was up all night because I felt like shittt.
I really need to clean my room.
I cant find the motivation.
help?
NEW BOYYYYZ? |
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| you're eyes, they sparkle in the light |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Beauty in the breakdown" | ] |
I was just diagnosed with Auditory Deficte Disorder...
what ever the fuck that is.
I get special privlages on my SAT.
yay, I need it alot.
I'll probably be put in special classes.
ugh -_-
I really don't belong with them, with those people
I'm exhausted. schools hard.
babysittings a pain. and I'll be doing it until SPRING.
hopefully i'm getting a car before the new year.
it's funny how your family is normal
and then one day it can all just fall apart
in the blink of an eye
your life can change forever
It's not fair, It isn't cool.
drinking your problems away aren't the answer
smoking them away aren't either.
I've been down that road.
please belive me, I'll be here for you no matter what.
but that isn't the answer, I hope you see that.
We all care. we do. Just dont push us away.
cause i'm not going to chase you around. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|09:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
I deleted my myspace yesterday
Josh & Elizabeth had a tiff.
and I was in the middle
I guess Elizabeth would have never found out if it wasn't for me.
:/
she had a right to know what was going on though.
whatever. next time I'll bite my tounge.
but I dont want there to be a next time.
I'm so tired its not even funny. I dont have the energy to do my homework.
I guess I'll live.
Lovelovelove. |
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